depressedof course i can't repeat it... it's horrible... i can't believe my family could ever have such a deeply engraved lie to the point that it could single handedly destroy the lives of an entire branch of the twisted, dying tree we already rot in...
i can't understand how someone could face themselves in the mirror every day knowing that they've been holding a terrible secret for over 30 years.
*sigh*
this month is just shit... things are already bad for me financially this month... and the move is stressing me out... on top of it i'm just so depressed now, especially knowing what i know and there's nothing i can do about it.
i wish i had a solution but i just don't, and it sucks.
